I kind of regret what I wrote a few days ago. We had a stupid family meeting last night!

I confess, I love Joe again. I’m even a little jealous of snot head Maria for going with Frank P___. Now she thinks she’s soooo special!

Bye

Great! Just when schools almost out my parents have to bug me. I’m not kidding, but I’m seriously thinking about running away. Of course people are going to get mad and yell at me in life, but i didn’t think they will every day or at every little thing like mom does. Why can’t she be nicer like Karen? She says she’ll try and work on being nicer but right there that’s a lie! She never does! Why can’t I be happy!?

(I’ll always know mom loves Jessie better)

I wish I had some neat stylish clothes. I don’t know why, I guess a lo of people are wearing them. Ellie Mae doesn’t wear hat many stylish thins I don’t think, and I want to be a lot like her, but , well, I don’t know, forget it.

(I’m so sorry about Charles T____. He just died today. It was so sad since I’ve known him since I was so little. I feel sorry for Kelly, even though I don’t like her.)

Yeah, all that stuff sounds like it could’ve been pretty bad, cuz it wasn’t too detailed.

What makes it not a tragedy is that I seriously came from a pretty warm and friendly home. No child abuse, no neglect. I am great friends with my parents now. But it’s so hilarious how you percieve things, especially small things, as a child.

I feel awful! I hope I get better because it will be Easter in a few days. I’m really tired so I guess I’ll get to sleep even though I don’t want to.

Well, Goodnight!

(PS Tomorrow is April! Just a few days til I’ll be an old lady! 12!!)

I’ve hurt too many people and no one can stand me so ‘m running away! If no one finds me, I’m still going to school, that is, only if my parents don’t tell any of my friends or the teachers. They probably wont eve care. No one wants me so I’m ignoring all people in this house except Jessie and Alex, unless they want me to ignore them too. Now maybe everyone can have PEACE!

(I will only talk to them If I have o. If they ask a question I have to or I’ll get yell at like always!)

I am soooo much in love with Joe! I can’t help it that I’m boy crazy, but that’s jus tme. Too bad he has to go with Elaine. I don’t see what he sees in her. She looks something like a half rat, just like the boys used to call her. I just wish Joe thought she was ugly, but then he’d go with Maria. Why am I so ugly!?

My sister always gets the attention! If she’s sick and everyone’s in one room, and she’s in the other room watching t.v., mom or dad goes in her room with her so she’s not alone. Now if it were me, they wouldn’t do that. I hate the way she also gets to do some things I did, but at a younger age! And parents talk about fair! Funny, I thought the other day they talked to me about fairness, and then they go and spoil Jessie.