I wish I could do something really rotten to Cate to get even for the way she acts around people. The only problem is, I might get in trouble. I don’t want that to happen.

Today I acted as if I really hated Mark W___. I did, from about the middle of study hall to the end, but after orchestra it was cool pretending to beat up on him with my history book. He is such a nerd!

I’ve still been having dreams and daydreams about Alasdair. Today I taped “You Can’t Do That On Television” and KISSED the T.V. screen when he came on. He’s so cute. I can’t help daydreaming about him. I have a very good daydream too!

Tomorrow night Ally is coming overnight!

Bye

Trent is gorgeous

Alasdair is a hunk

and Mark (entry scratched out) 

I remember meeting Mark W___. I liked him and then I didn’t. Now I do. I think he’s cute. He’s definitely cuter than his brother! Still is cuter than Mark.

I like to talk about Mark. He’s only worn one shirt that a really scuzzy guy might wear. He does have some nice sweaters and shirts and he doesn’t swear THAT much, just a little. Ah, who cares?

I have no idea what Trent is like. He went to Dickey (elementary school), so it’s hard to tell. I hope he’s not like all the other Dickey kids, though. I think his mom* could keep him under control, the way she acts. John could keep him under control too.

Well, gotta run! Trent is gorgeous, Alasdair Gillis is a hunk, and Mark is cute!

Bye!

*(she was my 3rd grade teacher)

Today I watched my dance recital and saw my very best friend Ellie Mae. Just seeing her made me remember how much nicer she was than anyone in my class. She made me remember all the great times we had. I haven’t heard from her in weeks and just seeing her made me cry. I don’t know if I could stand losing a friend like her. I wish she’d come back. I don’t even think she feels the same way about me. I wish she would. If she wants to be or not she’ s my very best friend in the world and I’m happy about it!

I’m still wondering what to send her for Christmas. if she wouldn’t have left I wouldn’t be so hurt!

Oh boy, did ou ever notice how I almost always write terrible problems? Well, I’ve got another one. I don’t want to play my violin in front of some of my relatives. So i hid in my room and pretended I was tuning my violin. I’m STILL in my room. My parents probably hate me, my relatives are probably mad and I feel terrible. I made a tape up of violin songs, but I figure they wont want to hear it. I don’t want to go downstairs ’cause I’ll get it! Especially when the relatives leave. I’ll kep you posted wtih details. I MAY NEVER RETURN! (I said that to cheer me up, well, a little)

LATER:

Well, I’m back and made it through the day without getting a beating. My parents weren’t edgy with me all day, only to my sister. The only problem is my brother threw up! Gross!

Well, I played one song for (great) Grandma T and I was glad.

Bye Bye for now!

Oh Boy maybe Joe’ll change his mind and be crazy over me, and he’ll ask me to go with him! Naw. only in my dreams would he. He’d probably go with someone who doesn’t wear glasses and braces and who talks to him a lot! probably Suzie and she isn’t even pretty. Well, looks aren’t everything, but maybe it is to him. I’m not pretty either.

Bye

This summer I went to Florida. It was great. Tell ya more about it on the next two pages.

(Next page)
Did ya hear? I went to Florida! Tell ya about it on the next page.

I am going to Bethany beach too. After thgat I am going to high school! AHHHHH!

Oh no! Not High School! I’m soooooo nervous.

Gotta get goin!

(next page)
florida!! Describe it! Enjoy it! Hurrah! I think I’m gonna cry! Ha! ha!

Florida was great. I liked hanging around Jean and Larry. I loved their condominium or however you spell it.

We also visited their house. It was nice. Jean’s boyfriend was cute.

Disney World was the funnest ever. Too bad I didn’t wear my glasses. I don’t think I did anyway. I lied the Haunted Mansion. It was cool. Gotta leave!

(author note: Wow, and to think I wanted to be a writer!) 

Sorry I didn’t write during our vacation!

I wish my mother would stop being mean and start being a nice decent person. Just when I think she’s going to be nice she gets all hypere again and starts yelling.

JEESH!

I wish she was more like her best friend Karen! And if she thinks she’s treating us like Grandma treated her, grandma doesn’t look like the kind to act like mom does. Its a wonder she’s not beating us to death!

(Soooo dramatic, don’t you think?) 

I kind of regret what I wrote a few days ago. We had a stupid family meeting last night!

I confess, I love Joe again. I’m even a little jealous of snot head Maria for going with Frank P___. Now she thinks she’s soooo special!

Bye

Great! Just when schools almost out my parents have to bug me. I’m not kidding, but I’m seriously thinking about running away. Of course people are going to get mad and yell at me in life, but i didn’t think they will every day or at every little thing like mom does. Why can’t she be nicer like Karen? She says she’ll try and work on being nicer but right there that’s a lie! She never does! Why can’t I be happy!?

(I’ll always know mom loves Jessie better)

I wish I had some neat stylish clothes. I don’t know why, I guess a lo of people are wearing them. Ellie Mae doesn’t wear hat many stylish thins I don’t think, and I want to be a lot like her, but , well, I don’t know, forget it.

(I’m so sorry about Charles T____. He just died today. It was so sad since I’ve known him since I was so little. I feel sorry for Kelly, even though I don’t like her.)