I wish I could do something really rotten to Cate to get even for the way she acts around people. The only problem is, I might get in trouble. I don’t want that to happen.

Today I acted as if I really hated Mark W___. I did, from about the middle of study hall to the end, but after orchestra it was cool pretending to beat up on him with my history book. He is such a nerd!

I’ve still been having dreams and daydreams about Alasdair. Today I taped “You Can’t Do That On Television” and KISSED the T.V. screen when he came on. He’s so cute. I can’t help daydreaming about him. I have a very good daydream too!

Tomorrow night Ally is coming overnight!

Bye

Trent is gorgeous

Alasdair is a hunk

and Mark (entry scratched out) 

I remember meeting Mark W___. I liked him and then I didn’t. Now I do. I think he’s cute. He’s definitely cuter than his brother! Still is cuter than Mark.

I like to talk about Mark. He’s only worn one shirt that a really scuzzy guy might wear. He does have some nice sweaters and shirts and he doesn’t swear THAT much, just a little. Ah, who cares?

I have no idea what Trent is like. He went to Dickey (elementary school), so it’s hard to tell. I hope he’s not like all the other Dickey kids, though. I think his mom* could keep him under control, the way she acts. John could keep him under control too.

Well, gotta run! Trent is gorgeous, Alasdair Gillis is a hunk, and Mark is cute!

Bye!

*(she was my 3rd grade teacher)

Today I watched my dance recital and saw my very best friend Ellie Mae. Just seeing her made me remember how much nicer she was than anyone in my class. She made me remember all the great times we had. I haven’t heard from her in weeks and just seeing her made me cry. I don’t know if I could stand losing a friend like her. I wish she’d come back. I don’t even think she feels the same way about me. I wish she would. If she wants to be or not she’ s my very best friend in the world and I’m happy about it!

I’m still wondering what to send her for Christmas. if she wouldn’t have left I wouldn’t be so hurt!

Oh boy, did ou ever notice how I almost always write terrible problems? Well, I’ve got another one. I don’t want to play my violin in front of some of my relatives. So i hid in my room and pretended I was tuning my violin. I’m STILL in my room. My parents probably hate me, my relatives are probably mad and I feel terrible. I made a tape up of violin songs, but I figure they wont want to hear it. I don’t want to go downstairs ’cause I’ll get it! Especially when the relatives leave. I’ll kep you posted wtih details. I MAY NEVER RETURN! (I said that to cheer me up, well, a little)

LATER:

Well, I’m back and made it through the day without getting a beating. My parents weren’t edgy with me all day, only to my sister. The only problem is my brother threw up! Gross!

Well, I played one song for (great) Grandma T and I was glad.

Bye Bye for now!